Too stubburn for my own good
I've had to give in and accept help from Walter, my wheelchair. I always feel like its such a massive step back when I have to use it and because of this thinking, I have refused to use Walter on so many occasions because I think I know better and that Zoe, the zimmer frame will do just fine.
This is such flawed thinking and after a year and a half, I’m finally seeing it. I know what you’re thinking ‘wow she’s a slow learner!’ This is true because I allow my ego to get in the way of an easier, less painful life. Who even does that?! Well except for me!
As I parked my wannabe perky bum on the seat my entire body sighed with relief. My spine tingled as if to say thank god for that! I knew then that I have been too stubborn for my own good and need to start changing my way of thinking. It’s time to start focusing on the positives. Using Walter means less muscle spasm attacks, which means less pain & a quicker recovery time, plus it allows me to get out the house and enjoy the beautiful sound of my children laughing.
Also, I feel I need to remind myself that I’ve come so far from where I was 3 years ago that I should be proud of my progress. Using Walter isn’t a step backwards, it’s just a pause on the stepping stones to take in the beauty of where I am at right now. I’ve worked hard to get to where I am and there is no reason why I should be ashamed of that even if I do have to celebrate with Walter every now and again at least I’m not in the chair every day like I was before.
I hope that anyone else who is in a similar situation to me learns to love themselves for who they. Be kind to yourself! We need to stop being so hard on ourselves as we did not choose this life but I do believe that the universe only gives us what we can handle.
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Katie Rose xxx